Sunday, April 3, 2011

Nothing Left ...

2.4.2011
Unlucky Incident had happened .
This incident make me lost everything ,
All my personal documentary , my mobile , my cash money around RM350 , YokeJing's camera
My precious photo , my car key , my Gucci key chain , my house Key and the beg that i loved most .

This incident Cause me nothing left anymore .
I'm alone ,
My money  , my mobile , My IC , My license , My cards ...
All gone ...

Confident Disappear completely ,
Not dare to confront The society that i stay at ,
Afraid , Anxious , Worried , Uneasy , Regret , Compunction , Era , Misery .

I still remember how much misery i am ,
How much Pain from deep inside my heart ,
How much misery i struggle ,
How much suffer by grounded in a black side and keep floating the moment when i award i'm nothing left at all ,
How much tears i had drop until cried without tears  ,

My brain keep on stuck in the moment when I opened the car bonnet ,
The screen keep on repeat in my mind ,
Feel so much Regret ,
Until I had decide to used the way to settle it that  is suicide .

I Beg ,
I was Begging ,
I was Begging Deeply inside ,
I was Begging Deeply Inside To Get a Wish From God ,
I wish to End Up My Life Completely , Is So Much Heavy Of Guilt I Carry  .
I Feel Misery and Suffer , Life is meaningless for me Already .
Confident completely Gone ,
My Belongings had leave me ,

Lives in This World Is nothing Different for Lives In Hell . 
Is Dreadful , Formidable , Hideous Extremely .

The Only Thing Is , Apologetic.
Feel so sorry for my daddy and mummy .
I'm always a troublemaker for your guys ,
I Feel Compunction to my daddy and mummy ,
I'm Useless , Stupid , Foolish , TroubleMaker , Mediocre , idiot , Dimwit , Cretin and Donkey . 

I'm So Sorry Daddy and Mummy,
I Let You Two Down . 

Yours Shouldn't Have A Daughter Like A Donkey ,
I Feel Embarrass To Confront Both Of You .

Dad , 
Mum , 
I Know You's Love Me .
I Love Both Of  You Too ,

But So Sorry ,  I'm  ...........
Useless .... 
Indeed .



The Most Sadness Post In My Blog . 
Good Night . 
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