Unless I'm Not .

I had skipped again ,
Meaningless actually .
Already been three days never went out to anywhere .
Feel empty .
I Miss Y'all , Babe's .

What should i do ?
Did i the one who most wrong ?
Did i ?

that's not just a small matter .
I understand the personal right and privacy .
I really understand that .
But i also have the right to know ,
I am not a stranger , I am part of  EMDS too .
despite i'm not important at all .
Does y'all ever think this is not fair to me ?
I do felt pity for myself .
Is Hurt .
Y'all know , How hurt was i really is .
No , y'all won't ever knew that .
Y'all won't .
Is a pain that can't expressed in literally .

This three days , i missed y'all so much ,
Did y'all realizes that ?

This three days , I cried many times ,
Did y'all realizes ?

This three days , I sick badly ,
Did y'all  realizes how much suffer i am ?

This three days , i been waiting y'all to came for me ,
Did you realizes that ?

This three days , how much i wishes to see y'all suddenly appear in front of my house gate ,
Did y'all realizes that ?

This Three days , I keep wish y'all to prove me that's i'm important ,
Did y'all realizes that ?

This three days , how much desirable to receive y'all calls .
Did y'all realizes that ?

No , y'all won't never ever know .
Because i'm holding a supporting-role , it just not necessary .
This statement does proved .
The fact is always ugly .  I understand that .

So , I wasn't Angry or Blaming on either .
This three days had enough for me to think .
I understand and kindly accept the fact .
Is so okay .

Anyway , Because of y'all ,
My Tears Dropped Worthy .

There's Always Agreement When Only With The Compromise .
GoodNight , Dude . =" ]

Passed Matter .

Sigh ...
Already couple weeks ago ,
Never been updated my kingdom .
I appologize .

Shan granny had gone through her operation .
Everything went pretty well .
Granny had recover to healthy and more cheerful .
We went to hospital everyday .
Finally she had discharge .

In between this couple weeks ,
Play hard , Work hard ( as a driver ) , Study hard ( went to many places ) .
Some of my friend had started their college life .
No jeallousy at all but worrying instead .

Form six class will  start officially at  9. 5 .2011
Hope there's no handicap for the registration .
Alehluya  <3

Oh ya , in addition , along this days ,
We had celebrate Dennis Koay Birthday .

But  ....







Hmm .... Tell u guys What ,
The first thing in my head when i Know that I'm not deserve to go for form six ,
My brain is incrediblely stimulate ,
It does existed perfectly blank .
Gosh ~

Fortunately , it was my Prank .
I read the information error .
I had sucessfully make myself completely Speechless  .
= ="

The fire remain stay still , hope that i can quench it someday .

A Glad Mode Outing , EMDS

My Jovial Moment With My Babe's .
Although the ending is quite worried but anyway i felt happy .
I realizes that i had never feel so happy like this for such a long time ago .
Laugh Out from my heart .
I felt really happy today .

Relax , Chillax , and Comfort .

Stress Free .

Oh ya , we went for movie .
Is singapore movie : Ghost Must Be Crazy .

Damn Funny .
You will really wanted to whacked them after Watched it .
Haha ...

Snap some photo ,
Sharing lately , Babe Mike haven upload yet .

Hmm ...
Today Babe Dennis and Babe Shan have a little weird .
They keep fooling Babe Wei by using me as a tool .
Lol ... So Lame .

Thanks Babe's EMDS , I Feel infinity Happiness .
Love Ya .

It's End .

Finally ,
It's End .
I Can Feel The Passed obviously . 
Thanks .

The Feeling had completely gone .
I won't be suffer by Stuck in the horrible moment anymore .

I feel relief .
I had relief from the rhythm which is
Repeating Cried And Fall ASleep .

The Maybank security guard found my bag at the drain ,

Very thankful to state , he send back my bag according shan's license address .

At least i get back some of my belonging .
Feel a bit better .

Before i get better ,

I realize that ,

When i was in a very difficult predicament ,
There's are someone will never ever give up for me .

They're my and mine own brand heroin and hero , My Family Members ...
Thanks for being me and cheers me up without grumble and weary .

And Another one for me ,
Shan , I know is always been you .

Thanks for Dennis giving me support ,
At least your encouragement .

Thanks everyone's Support .
I'll will never forget .

Thanks God .
Actually , I feel grateful , thankful , appreciation , happiness .
Seriously , My happiness is not about the Money ,
Is about the people Who surrounding me .
Yes , No doubt , They Love me .

Especially , Daddy and Mummy .
No matter What , Because I Love You .

 Miss Euzane , Had Stand Up To Built Again My Another Empire ,
My Empire Is Not Necessary About The Grand , Is All About The Peace .
Charge .........

=)

Faithless To Accept .

After The Incident,
I realize That I Haven Accept the Fact ,
I Still stay at the difficult moment ,

I Cry ,
I Cried Until my tears had finnish ,
I Cried until I Exhaust ,
I Cried until Exhaust and Fall Asleep .

When I Woke up ,
Tears drop again ,
And Started to cry again ,
Until Exhaust and Fall Asleep ,

Although Mummy and Daddy Keep on persuade ，
Even Though My Family Keep on Talk Over With me ,
Keep On Convince , Console and Comfort Me ,
Until They getting Worried ,

Also Can't Take Me Out ，
I were Just Like I'm dying .
 
My Eyes Was Pain ,
My Heart Was Hurt Badly until It Can't Replaceable Anymore .
The Inner Me Was Shivering And I feel Cold And Faithless .
Can't even Stand Confidently .

I swear ,I had Tried To Confront The Fact But Failed ,
I'm So Much Useless ....
I just Can't Accept The Fact ,

I Can't ....
I Really Can't ....

 

I Just No My Strength Afford It .
Souless .

................................................................................................................................

Nothing Left ...

2.4.2011

Unlucky Incident had happened .
This incident make me lost everything ,
All my personal documentary , my mobile , my cash money around RM350 , YokeJing's camera , 

My precious photo , my car key , my Gucci key chain , my house Key and the beg that i loved most .

This incident Cause me nothing left anymore .
I'm alone ,
My money  , my mobile , My IC , My license , My cards ...
All gone ...

Confident Disappear completely ,
Not dare to confront The society that i stay at ,

Afraid , Anxious , Worried , Uneasy , Regret , Compunction , Era , Misery .

I still remember how much misery i am ,
How much Pain from deep inside my heart ,
How much misery i struggle ,
How much suffer by grounded in a black side and keep floating the moment when i award i'm nothing left at all ,
How much tears i had drop until cried without tears  ,

My brain keep on stuck in the moment when I opened the car bonnet ,
The screen keep on repeat in my mind ,
Feel so much Regret ,
Until I had decide to used the way to settle it that  is suicide .

I Beg ,
I was Begging ,
I was Begging Deeply inside ,
I was Begging Deeply Inside To Get a Wish From God ,
I wish to End Up My Life Completely , Is So Much Heavy Of Guilt I Carry  .
I Feel Misery and Suffer , Life is meaningless for me Already .
Confident completely Gone ,
My Belongings had leave me ,

Lives in This World Is nothing Different for Lives In Hell . 
Is Dreadful , Formidable , Hideous Extremely .

The Only Thing Is , Apologetic.
Feel so sorry for my daddy and mummy .
I'm always a troublemaker for your guys ,
I Feel Compunction to my daddy and mummy ,
I'm Useless , Stupid , Foolish , TroubleMaker , Mediocre , idiot , Dimwit , Cretin and Donkey . 

I'm So Sorry Daddy and Mummy,
I Let You Two Down . 

Yours Shouldn't Have A Daughter Like A Donkey ,
I Feel Embarrass To Confront Both Of You .

Dad , 
Mum , 
I Know You's Love Me .
I Love Both Of  You Too ,

But So Sorry ,  I'm  ...........
Useless .... 
Indeed .

 

The Most Sadness Post In My Blog . 
Good Night . 
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