Its Over

I'll be honor and pleasant to Declare , TODAY , IS 20/12/2010
SPM had Over !!!!
Woohoooo 

Time passing fast ,
Before SPM , I swear to myself , after SPM i want to ne crazy like a hell !!!!
But I never though that , Today is my friend's daddy Funeral , His father had pass away.
 And we attended his father funeral ...
Fortunately He's a optimistic person , Hope he will be strong .

May His's Father Rest In Peace .

The first gathering is be with the gang which bad impression .
But  i realizes that its really fun and this will my first crazy thing after my SPM examination .

Talk loud , Laugh Loud and Speaking  Free Rule .

So much more Crazy to go ...

Through out this , i realizes that .....
What is true friend .
In This Incident , I've deeply recognize a true and truest friend !!
Gang in with them just feel like everything can be really crazy !!!
Gang with them , i can seem alot of  jealous sight spoting our group !!
It extremely crazy !!!!

I very appreciate it !
Thanks god giving me alot alot alot !!!
Thanks ~

EMDS =

EUZANE > I love you  .
MIKE > I love you .
DENNIS > I love you .
SHAN > I love you .

Hey Gang , I love too .

Oh Ya ,
NEVERTHELESS , GOD , I LOVE YOU

While Waititng ...

Waiting for my breakfast ,
Actually that's unnecessary ,
But eat on the same table , i will poison someone .
hehe =')

I know ,
Is Hurt but just state it optimistic .
So that , i won't be so suffer eventually .

Since now i'm got same space ,
I'm intend to spend here,

last paper tomorrow , after that i have throw off those three word 'SPM'
And guesse what ,
Imma update the eight word ' SHOPPING' in my  brain . Cool huh ?! isn't it ?!
hahahahaa ...

Finally I can Enjoy my life without apprehension.
That must my enjoyable and joyful period that i ever have !!
$$ I HAVE TO PROBLEM TO SPEND ON ...

hehehe ....
Others , I won't care anymore .
Cause you make feel despair . indeed .

well , okay then . I'll be a optimistic BITCH .
Won't Let You Hurt Me Easily Anymore .

TATA ....

零碎 =‘（

你变了，
我能这样说吗？

你真的变了，
为什么？？
心真的很痛很痛很痛。。。

我为何要如此的伤心，如此的心痛 ？
为什么？

到底是为了什么？

你以前真的不是这样的。。
你以前是个开朗又很三八的女孩。。
 从不花钱，只是一很单纯的女孩。。
很乖巧，很静，很害羞的女孩。。
偶尔也会发发脾气。。。
但我从看不透你的内心世界。。。这让我真的很苦脑咯。。

自从妈妈出去做工之后，
我开始扛起这头家，
我们一起出街，我们一起买东西，一起’血拼 ‘，一起笑，一起瞒着妈咪。。
你说你今天不想上课，我却赞成。。
你说你想买这个买哪个，我说声好，之后我们又一起出了。。
每次都还开心哦。

姐妹情，真可以让一不以为意的句话就破坏了吗？？
每次你生我气的时候，我心里就会很痛。。
虽然很痛，但我不生气哦。。。你知道吗？？

在家，我是大姐，所以自尊心很强，希望能好好管理好这个家。。
让每个人都你能感到幸福，也很渴望得到认同。。。
但每次你生气，我放下我的自尊心，主动个你说话。。
虽然感觉委屈，但好像很值得，但你却不领情，我就会很生气。。。
最后还是好回了。。。

但现在，
一句没意的话，你竟然生气了。。
发了好大的脾气。。
打算跟你道歉，但说不出口。。。当时想该怎么办呢？？
到了明天，打算叫她起身去吃早餐。。
她说她不去，弟弟说她因为生我的气所以不去。。
我就帮她打包回来了，
回到家，她在电脑前，我们叫了好几声，她才去吃早餐，
结果 那包面，她没吃，
公公从厨房走出来，问我们·她怎么？？
谁把她弄生气了？？

我真的，
好心痛。。。好失望。。。真的很生气。。。

我气得，说：
做么变到像鬼酱？？
做么会将的？？
要去带她去看心理医生了。。
。。。。。
。。。。。
我真的很心痛。。
真的很伤心
我控制着自己停止骂她。。
她会生气。。
我只好往外跑。。
但我不能，因为要载弟弟去补习。。
所以没有。。

都已经这么瘦了，怎能不吃东西呢？？
这怎么可以呢？？
我会心痛你知道吗？？

在我还没有开面子书的时候我一直这样想，
我该向她道歉，将可能他会吃点东西吧！！

载了弟弟，到家，上上网在上楼哄回她。。
怎知，我看见了，都明白了。。

原来当时她写了
“ I HATE YOU !! BITCH !! "

她竟然用这五个字来形容我。。
呵呵。。。
从苦笑到大哭。。。
眼泪一直不断的流。。。一直流。。流个不停。。。
我都不知道为什么。。。。。。

这次，我是用眼泪来打好这个部落格
真的很难过。。。很难过。。。

我真的很爱你的你知道吗？？
跟公公吵架是要保护我的弟妹们？？
不让他们受伤。。。
我真恨疼你的你知道吗？？
好担心你，好担心。。。
不懂你有没有被人骗？？
不懂你有没有吃亏？？
不懂你有没有傻傻被人欺负？？

好想尽我全力好好保护着你们。。。
especially is you ...

Always my dearest sister !!!
Just wish to see smile again ~~
be the one before who you are ...

' I SWEAR SHE WASN'T LIKE THAT BEFORE , SHE'S MY GOOD GIRL '

Trust me and I trust myself ...
she will came back right ??
i said ... yes , she will come back ~

Working

Yeppy ...
working now ...
Following to the Cik Lela teach me the way to control the system
I'm able to manage my recepient department counter ....
just transfer and realease or maybe hold on the call for people ..
feel fresh and strange with everything here but is quite easy for my job
I can Online and so on ...
Blahh ...Blahh ... Blah ...

Reflect backward , i was rush out at 12 something ,
changing clothes , driving , go through the Tol and pass by The Curve shopping mall , finally get in to the bulding huge like a KLCC .. with the full of security guard .. full with mark of high class ..
nevertheless , English is the first thing to communicate with each other people over here ..

air-corn is cold and full with the sound of high hill while office lady or women is walking ...

the elevator alert is non- stop and it surrounding me .
OMG ...

just Receive the First line from finance department .
Now got three professional people is coming for the meeting .
i was just bluring and don't know what to do..gosh ~ is embarrass !!

By the Way , i mean alot of foreign worker here
Some professional foreign will coming here for meeting and i just meet two ... they're just nice and gentle .

Gotta work .
off ~

;)

Good afternoon to all my dearest ...
Hmm ...
Nothing much to said !!
Nothing much to write !!
Nothing much to sang !!
Nothing much to complain !!

but

Much more to dream ~

I just wish my jovial life will step forward for Euzane..
Stick back to my buddy , joyful much !!
Love them much ...
sometimes they really naughty and playful but ...

 They Just Make Me Smile *.*

EMDS 

 They are precious .. =)

Okay , Turn your head to the preparation of SPM ..
My schedule is hilarious ...
So far Maybe improve 50% but still hang !!
Hahaha ... but i enjoy it actually ~

Hope SPM will coming faster even fastest ..
Because it block my jovial ~

quick .... quick ... quick ....

Eager to challenge " YOU "
Come ... Come ... Come ....

Im sure will bite ' YOU ' in a pieces !!
Hahahaha ....

Off ~~

Chaos

Hey , 
Here's again !!
Wonder Why I'm so leisure for posing my blog .
Simple ..
My plan had going through chaos ..
Stop Study ,
Lost my passionate of study ,
And my sequences all mess up .


Hmm .... countdown for the SPM WAR still have 20 days ..
which mean is two and a half solid week .
But still in a credit status .

Blurr ... What da yuck ..

Just came back from Doctor Christopher lesson .
It is a last lesson for this years .
Arhhh .... Gonna miss him and all the lecture laa ...
When the lesson comes to the end , he show us a song which is so much meaningful for us .
Doctor Chris , the song will also be in me and i will never forget the dearest you .

Erm .. The song will be showing for the next post ,
Everyone of you are encourage to listen and understand the lyrics .
The song is from Whistney Houston .

Ya , i wants to be the one whom proud when getting my result

Yes , Imma gonna strong witted for my strategy .
That is so much more to win .

Right ?! 

Rotten rhythm =(

Early in the morning , going to fill up petrol and casually pump air for my tires .
accidentlly i had lost the tire cover when i open it .
maybe it fall to somewhere .
i keep finding also zero result .

Though you will said something to comfort me or secure my equatorial my anxiety .
But you make me disappointed .
Or maybe not , i might too high expectation on you .
is me 'unrequited love' .

When i was inside the class ,
i keep on 'turn dead end' like a cow
i hate myself that I'm always the loser .

blaming you and keep cranky about that you all are not concern me anymore .
so i not important for you all , so group shoudn't be four alphabet ， it should be three alphabet .
My mood was damn suck and complicate .
Why ??
I still remember that time i keep on struggle to find the way out of this all kind of evil and devil implantation
that moment i keep on heard someone whispering about all the negative value the can be suit for you .
The whispering force me until i can't even breath .
is almost collapse .
I just lose control to hate you .

So ,
I keep on insist that you are my love one .
i keep on reflect back what we through before .

That why i used some certain reason to went out for arrange my mood and my mentally though positively 
So just hide inside the fitting room and cry as much as i can .
Said what i think inside my heart .
of cause with no sound la .
Quite smelly actually .
Finally i have success defeat the devil .
And step by step , near to the angel embrace .
And the good luck had found me .
Everything settle . ^^

i get my buddys back .
Fortunately , i didn't lost them .
i was so thanks heaven .

I LOVE YOU GUYS  !!
I LOVE EMDS !!
THANKS GUYS !!

I Am Sorry For Blaming You For Everything That I Just Couldn't Do ,

And I Hate Myself By Hating You .

Once is EMDS , always EMDS .

One Leave , EMDS doesn't exist .

Now i Understand . Indeed .

Hmm ...
Recently , my mood was in Volatile status .
But is okay , hope all of you will considerate  my ill temper la . 

 Everything will be alright !!

What a rotten rhythm ...

Phewww ... 


Total all , I am the winner !!
^^v 


Euzane , Euzane , Euzane ,

You Such A Silly Girl .

=)


Off !!

Unspeakable Misery

Originally ranked 24 ,
Unbelievable !!!!
I knew there were something wrong ,
But feel really glad and disburden ,
at least i didn't drop to the worst department ,
at least mommy daddy , i didn't let you down much .
Am i right ?!

"HaHa"

Todays help teacher tidy up those document for our class .
And i aware that my result had record error ,
Wow ... when i know this ,
it just like Bolt from the blue ,
That mean i have to embrace the drop to the worst department .
I totally stunned and I unable to accept the fact .
Is were really sad .
disappointed+sad+ agony + heartache = ?? 
And i have no choice to be honest .
Is you teach me .


But i can't actually be what i am and how were i feel .
Because you will angry and worry .
So i keep endure .

Heart Broken . =(
But I can't tells you.

Simplification is :
 That day i was like top of the world and now i turn to the upside down .

Sad :(
Sad :(
Sad :(

Off ~

BookWorm **

With this photo , yes , with no doubt , Practice for my strategy to defeat the SPM 2010 WAR had started .
I almost submerge by all this stuff pile up like a volcano and the larva almost flood my brain off .
Is AGONY ..

Think about this 'VOLCANO' , mean study hard .
Think about 'FATBEE' , mean play hard .

But this weekend every moment also think about this volcano .
So no outing so far .

$$ SAVE .

By the Way ,
Hanging under the gas must be thoroughly right ?
So i Stool a sneak .. hehehe ^^v 


Here my faceCam :

•  PLAY HARD AND STUDY HARD .

 ___________________________________________________________

Oh Ya ...
Almost forgot to wish all of you .

HAPPY HALLOWEEN ...

Don't ever Look Back ~~~

Helpless

Thought to have a delight dinner together.
But i feel sad to see you annoying because of some stuff.
I feel i am the one who cause u feel annoying , almost frustrated .
I'm so sorry for my wishful thinking .
I'm sorry for my smart aleck .
Sorry for making you annoying .
Cancel the dinner is because i don't want you get into the bad mood .

I'm just useless .
everything also can't be done nicely .
Sorry i have no ability for leadership .
Although feel sad but hope you don't get yourself in a bad mood .
Don't angry with me if i have make a wrong decision for you .

Its all my fault ... 

S.t Mood

 Long time never manage my sweet place ...
But not really long time la ~Itzit all of you still in a well and great condition ... i think so .
But your king here had defeat off .
Recently available in a complicate mood , i was really sad until want to die .. almost collapse ~
But seriously Trail result make me felt regret and dishonor .
come to the end three word will appear in my forehead that is " SAD "

According to my EMDS console me , i decide to put away the trail result and focus on SPM result .
Maybe i really can get something that what i want ...
so i put my mood which is St.Mood ... 
St.Mood = study mood 

with this mood i always am :)

Futhermore , I decide to used Teacher Lisa philosophy After having  a nice chat with her .

Philosophy 

• Make a Promise with yourself that I must do it hardly 

 ENJOY HARD AND STUDY HARD 

 This what teacher LISA told me when we chat .
Before she told me this philosophy , she gave me a warning that's :

• if u can do it following the theory then don't ever think to try it .
• Just stay away from this theory 

Hmm ... I might can try this , so this philosophy is no risk for me naturally 


Wish i'm can still get my dream !! 
before the wish ... i should hold my dream tight and never have a chance to let ot blow away !!

Lets Have a Carnival for the emperor !!
Hurray for your majesty !!
Cheer up


All for king Euzane

LOVE YA and all of you !!
MUackzzz ...
♥

Denouement

Time passing through three weeks ago ...
This three weeks ..hmm ... what i'm exactly focus in that is >> My TRIAL Exam <<
How miserable am i ... this three i was stress like a hell ...
In the middle i get a really tough sick ...
fever , coughing , catch cold and headache ...
But Now ..i want to SOL ( scream out loud )
It already in the pass and turn to became my memory !! Wahahaha.....（villainous smile )
But this villainous smile it just a temporary  .... wry smile will coming to substitute it soon ...
so better appreciate and take a real enjoyable for it before the wry smile comes to me ...


Okay .. just wanna said ... My Trial Had FINNISHHHHHHH .......
WoHoooooooooo ......

=DD
Euzane here ... twink**

Pasquinade

Dudu ... dok ...dok ... dok ...
On Air
King Euzane is on da line !!
XD

Hmm ... curious about why is pasquinade ?!
Here we google the meaning ....
pasquinade is mean satire ...
is i'm the bad gals satire the stupid f**k Bastard ...L.W.M 

Now bastard , tell you what ...
while u insulting or satired people or any human being, you are cursing ur life too
so ... my advise is please keep your mouth shut and stay where you are ...
If not , god also wont help you !!
I'm satire you because you are so damn on stupid ...wiggle and idiot !!
since we are classmate , here my advise and suggestion for you !!
but anyway i feel shame to be same class with you !!
you are damn f**kings suck pimp .... that's you !!

I don't mess with u , you don't ever try to mess with me ..... bastard !

• Consequence

King Euzane have discriminate You ( bastard f**king pimp ) ...
Guilty ...and implement penalty immediately ...
and officially declare  debouchment the penalty which is >>

• CuT BalLS oFf  
• BeStoW you a HanDSome & PerFeCt fACe
• DeSpoILyour VoIcE   

The judgment had been traverse by King Euzane  Pets ....

R.I.P  bastard !!

Good boy !!

WAhahahahahah ......
XDD

Okay .....is overmuch !!
I know ...
hey Buddys .... just laugh it off ya ....
Don't take record it !! 
hahahha .... I'm feel sank !!
Thank buddy !!

King Euzane is glad today ....
thank My Queen and My General that fight for me !!
Grant My Queen and My General a precious wish !!

 

Oh yeah ~~
>> Dismiss .
Beautiful retreat.
King Euzane ♥

Misfortune

Alloh ....haaaa ...
Yea ... I'm still alive (wry smile)
First day of school i embrace a wide-ranging welcome inexorable surprise ...
what a unmerciful for me .

During the schooling ,  i'm felt strange and stressful for sure
after school took fatbee and back to my home as usual .
Monday schedule >> TUITION ..... oH mAN ...
Fast ... fast... fast... and rush ... rush ... rush ...
Fortunately I'm still on time , no worries by the way !


When i On the way to tuition ,
Fatbee get scratch badly by the container lorry ... 
What a rotten ..... f**kshit**
door is in the a indentation tone .
What a stupid asshole lorry driver and worker .... 


Heart bleeding while looking the penetrating scar ...
How sad was i ....
heartache ='(
Sigh **


My loved one >> Sorry Didi & Mimi 
Its was half of my fault ...

How deep inside ...awwwww .....

heartache , is like the scar had scratch deeply inside my heart 

Piteously fatbee , mummy sayang ...

Sigh ***

Inform Didi firstly for sure ...
Ah Wah second and he come and give some advice for me ..
Is bout how to cure the scar ..

Won't tangent it temporary ...

Tough Mimi will going to scold me like a hell but i was totally wrong ...
Instead of she was trying to console me , i'm so touch at the moment !!
 I'm crying because of my Mimi change to be lovely and kindly !!


I love where i are and who i am ...
Thanks Mimi and Didi ....

*** Love ya ***

=')

Oh No ..... stay too long!!

Offf   .... 

BiBoBiBo ....

King Euzane withdrew ....

XP

^^  

Dududu ....

Alowww ...
Back ....
Didi and Mimi heading to genting again ...yeah ~~  >.
Hmm ... off today ...
heart for study also flow out already !
Heck la ..... bluwwwwww ...

School gonna reopen tomorrow with compulsory setter up by government
study ..study ... study ....
Come back looo wei ..... Miss Euzane

Oh ya , almost forgot , i need a bottle for schooling .
Going to buy later ...

heading to Jusco later on ....

Dude , i miss you all ...
EMDS will reunion soon ....

Love ya !!

Desicion

Hey ,
Yup and Yeappy ..
I'm totally out of awful and back to mood again ..
 Yes , No doubt , school gonna reopen soon !
which is mean  Trial is near too .
The most scary and horrible thing had get closer

Today went to choo choo house for revision .
Arhh .... okay , honestly I'm stuck all the way ..
what a heck plan and elevation ...
but with connive from choo .
finally i had grasp the concept at least .
XD

The other hand , I realized that i with kind of admire her place .
hmm ... is cool =P
We sharing alot about our future path and the screen !!
choo is really fun to chat with ^^
And i had declared my new nick name & Euzane
supported by Shan & Choo
So , i decided to change . This is my final decision .
Imma gonna use this name to rock my whole life ..
^^v

Trial is getting closer  , should try my best to achieve my excellent life standard
yeah , bringing your wishes and luck all the way on .

Euzane
Gotta off
Bye
=D

My Awful =(

Hey ,
in a bad condition now !!
everybody was in upset with me ....
i wonder how intangible i am ??!!
This is really sad ....
By the way no brothers anymore ..

I din't mean to claim a confession from you to mom ...
I just want you to hear my lamentation ...
I just want you to stay and accompany me ...
But you leave .

I been really upset of you is because i been waiting you whole afternoon ..
called u twice , you answer : " coming back , coming back "
okay then , i try to waiting and keep everything nicely and waiting for u to bring us out for lunch or something .
（Wry smile ) hahaha .... maybe i'm thinking too much !!
I have waited you for long time ...
But you don't know it , just blaming and complaining bout the outing ..
The outing is not mine idea !!!
But im not going to care much more about this !!

So i'm think about daddy , I just can't wait to see your infront of the door gate .
finally i have seen I'm was damn happy with it but ........
for me it already scramble by HIM ( the devil monster )
and get blaming by mom ..
This make me feel really bad !!!!

Good morning ,
they already went out for enjoying their breakfast  ...
Im not one of them anymore , aren't im right ??！！
Such a awful morning ...

Actually is okay ~
Erm ... everything will be alright !!
This family still worth for me to fight and insist for !!
except someone ~~

Once again ..
Good Morning Buddy ~
&
Selamat Hari Raya ~

=' )

Life Sequence

Holidays is going on now !!
My life sequence automatically upheaval .
Try to manage but still mess up ..
Because of my emotional had holding my nose so i just the a stupid cow and follow it !!

Things that's in my draft task >>

> Study
>Shopping
>Keep Fits
>Tidy up the house all the time
>Manage my Housework completely perfect
> Washing my White Shoe
>Sent thing back to owner
>Take Care  brother and sisters well

• I can only ensure to done it completely just a few ...

So the consequence is , been really confuse and grievances surrounding me !!
Should be really serious , so that i can have my own personal space to manage my stuff !!

I Need Ameliorate .......

• AMELIORATE = IMPROVE

BabyLuck Is Back To Meeeee ^^v

Weeeeee ...
goes to 1U shopping !!
FOS bought alot of clothes ....
so nice ...
I can't wait to wear it for outing . ^^
but still more than implicit ...
that's why we walk around ..
ooppss ... i found my target ~
That shop >> Wedges <<
Oh no , so i just bought a wedges with no doubt !
Hehehehehe ... ^^

But think around ...haiz ...I SPENT ALOT .... MY $$$$
okay ~ nvrmnd laaa ...
will hit that amount once again for someday !!

Last post was about my car key had gone at no where !!
but this super lucky day , i had found it back accidently !!
i was damn happy , i scream my daddy name and cried in front of him..
OMG ...
what a babyluck .... HeeeHarrrr ...

>Clothes
>Wedges
>My car key

= BabyLuck   =D

Weird

Hey ...
such a rotten luck i have for this morning!
Fatbee key had gone ~
but i very ensure that i did hang the key on the hanger !
but still undefined !!
ok ... fine ..maybe i get wrong with this but still cant found it at anywhere and everywhere inside my house !
 I'm getting really frust bout this  ...
perhaps i shouldn't be like this and non-stop my searching THE KEY ..
Sigh **

Pass By

Hey ,
Erm ... such a few century i never went here ..feel strange ~
Actually wanted to blogging ....
but 
since i have occupied my time to manage other stuff  so i just allow to pass by .
Im sorry for ignore my blog so long.
by the way i'm here again for nothing extraordinary but with a remark greeting !
Next time i should spent a part of time here !
won't be lonely anymore !!
Hmm ... Next blog should be my reader favourite ...
Be right here waiting for me ~ 
: )

Wake up early in the morning feel really really disappointed on you.

 today should be a really fresh morning and get tidy to get my brilliant result

but

you had took away such a goody mood from me .

just only once and not always at all , just once ,

your expression and your reaction really make me fed up with you at all .

He's my best friend , why you could show like that reaction ?!

I feel chill to you .

Hmm ... back to the school opening day .

One word i can express it , that is " HUNGRY "

i doesn't take any food for this morning at all until the end of this event , Gosh ~

I was chating with Mr.Kumar all day long before those parent came .

We have a ridiculous conversation , He's cute , i wish to introduced him to my daddy .

they must be very well in communicate . =)

Before taking my report card , i tough i was around in ranking 20 or 25 something

but i'm totally guesses fault , Im ranking 15 in my class .

Oh no ~ that was really unbelievable .

I'm improving further . Good

But on Other hand , Shan was really bad luck .

Her's mother was falling down from the double floor height tank area to the staircase .

Mr.Balan were fetching me to her house and both of us were decide to go her house for sending a regard .

After that i'm  stay at her house for helping her and console her .

Hope she can through it smooth and well .

In conjunction , with this affair i have quit the choir competition accidently .

it makes me feel relax and comfort .

hope my decision wont troublesome people .

Hmm .... today was a unexpectable day !

( I'm glad ） =）

Me : Eddy

Hello !

Don't stun and get shock !!

Is was me ~Chai Kei , but is new me !!!

As you know , 

I almost get closer to my future!!

should get ready to receive my achievement that i have study hard in this five year in my secondary school.

Erm .. i decide to choose a name to fight with me for my new life style which mean after graduated .

So the fact was change obviously , it was Eunise transform to Eddy .

Ng Chai Kei @ Eddy (education first )

okay , nothing to declare further .

In addition , i have been design my blog as well .

Not outstanding , Not extraordinary , and it just well and simple !!

I like it by the way !!

thanks god to blessing me all the way in my life !!

I'm thankful for my awaken !!

(will be continue for the next post )