Sad Wonder =' (

Just came back from  Desa Park City with my own buddies .
Mike was my driver .
After Fetching Dennis .
We Was very happy while waiting shan .

We sat at the lake side close to each other ,
This moment make me feel Lucky and Grateful .
I was feel like every vexation had totally gone automatically .

After Shan's came , then we went to 32'F for a ice-shave.
It Was really delicious .

But
It left a lot of  imperfect .

I realizes that always there have something i don't really know between yours .
Everytimes , There must be something i was zero get the topics .
I feel stupid ... 

Yes , Only you can feel me right ??
At least , you've asked .
feel better ?! i think ...

And I was wondering WHY ?
Why don't makes thing easy ?
Why decide to travel another unnecessary way ?
Why should be me first ?
Why there have something i can't know ?
Why there have something y'all don't want to tell me ?
Why there have something that can't chat when i was here ?
Why there have something that can't let me know ?

Why ?
Why ?
Why ?

I was struggle and suffer while i was keep wondering .


Am i think too much ?
or
Maybe I'm just too sensitive ?
or
They just don't think i'm a part of them ?
Maybe
I'm not important at all ?

Perhaps I was totally wrong badly .

I'm Just Wonder .
 And
The wonder was Sad .


How should i Control myself ??
I Just Not Understand .
Sigh ~